~~Mrs Yusof~~

This tembam girl is my nice Safiya  My dad with his 2 step grandsons.  Malu2 konon,lastly terakam jugak..   I admired both of them for their patiences Forever cool guys!

Title doesn't show that I am a disabled person. But I need some times before starts doing crazy things over fb which I have deactivated. I will be come back on Christmas. Actually its just that I just can't use my laptop all the time. I felt like i had to 'fight' with someone I love. Kind of fussing over some things that sometimes doesn't make sense at all. But its kind of great think where you will be able to know about yourself. Testing your patience over something that you had been loving doing them. Then you will know much you love your own self...these doesn't related to anyone..it all being yourself...your own self. You are going to know who is yourself? Isn't that weird? Yeah..sometimes being so straight over some matters would be dull in your life. Its just me who always love doing adventurous.  Just arrived home after having dinner with Ky and sons,also my father's cousin Pak Long Razak and wife, Mak Long who came to Sitiawan this morning,. Al...

 Those 8 trainees will going back on 21st Dec. I am so happy for them after training them with my hardcore voices for almost 6 months. But I never object to get any more trainees coz I love teaching and giving them knowledge. Some of them are really hard to accept may be bcoz of the communcation breakdown. They couldn't understood whatever I am saying on instruct them unless I am doing their slang.And for me to converse in their language is very hard. I do not want to please them, coz they need to please me...hahah.

Ky and sons. ahhhahah..really stunning faces.

Happy together at Teluk Batih Beach with 3 sons.

Menu- Nasi Impit, Kuah Kacang,Daging Rendang,Ketupat Pulut Daun Palas,Kuah serawa durian.Nasi Biryani and Ayam Masak Merah had been done for today. I just love to cook. semua siap before time.I just hope it will fine with Ky and sons. I rasa tak enak dgn dia and I hope it will be fine too. Too much hurt at this time. I do not know why. I had hurt so much. Sometimes I tried to ignore that feeling but it hurt me more and more. I don't know how and when can I stop this pain. It hurt me so much. Inside of me.

Nak tulis apa? Apa-apa pun. Lagi...aku cinta kepada mu..aku terkentut..pot pot..lagi?

I am doing splendid job with angry guests in the hotel. Why angry?They made reservation without confirmation and my FO released the booking once the reservation without deposit payment. Now the staffs noticed how hard I am trying to convinve and persuade the guest not to angry. Luckily,I managed to do it.And some guests(who angry at first) was laughing when made a funny quote 'later,after u dun get a room,who to be blame? Rosmah's fault!' Sapa salah kalau tak dpt bilik ?Aku jugak. Front office staff aku pi makan dari kul 1.30 pm. So here I am alone,handling almost 15 checked in transactions. Ada yg marah sebab tak dpt bilik dan aku berjaya memberi bilik setelah telefon reservation guest yang ramai dan tak jadi check in kat tempat aku.Teruk juga aku nak menepis segala tempias tu.

 After thinking so much..plus minus subtract and multiply I decided to surrender My All to Ky. He's my husband anyway, why should I fear of him thinking me on the other way round since we've been together.   That's also my promised to him before we nikah. 'I would give you the site and let you read the other half of me and would you promise me that you would not angry of what I have written.' That would make sense since it's not easy to let a person know the background. I know he will consider that and he loves me for who I am.Betul tak?

Such a beautiful moment. With everyone at home!

I love the way you love me but sometimes the body language shown nothing of love.

Sebenornya aku dah rasa boring sebab hari ni merupakan hari terakhir aku bercuti setelah bermula dari 26hbSeptember hinggalah 5hb Oktober. 10 hari maaa..Lamakan! Tapi aku rasa sekejap aja. Apa pun quite happy sebab dapat balik Johor bersama suami yang dicintai. Yang best tu kami bawa kereta yang tak pernah kami bawa balik ke BP sebab tak percaya pada kebolehan kereta lama tu. Alhamdulillah,tiada apa yang berlaku cuma kereta tu kuat makan minyak dahhh..Istimewa kerana dapat berhari raya bersama suami itu yang terbaik dalam hidup aku. Selama ini tak pernah merasa.Bila dah ada suami semua perlu diingat..nak bawa tu nak bawa ni..tapi akhirnya ada juga yang tertinggal. Bila balik Bp,tak pernah umur aku beraya sakan. Balik Kg Istana jumpa atuk ,ayah kepada mak. Balik Layang2 jumpa Wan,Pak Mok, Makcik Ros dan Pak Andak.Pak Uda pula terlupa dan aku tak larat nak bergerak ke sana ke mari..Sebab perut dah penuh. Bila kat Spg Rengam,terlalu lah rumah setan tu..bukan terlalu..tapi terpaksa ...

Genap sebulan aku bernikah. Dan menyambut Aidilfitri pertama kali bersama dgn Ky dan keluarga.

  Alhamdulillah, setelah risaukan baju raya handmade tak siap2 dan tak dapat ditempah lagi. Aku dah almost give up.So I did urged Ky to fix the sewing machine which I always using it when I was so rajin sewing clothes in my hometown. It costs about RM90.00. And aku masih tak periksa lagi mesin tu. Tunggu esok nak beli gunting baru ,then aku nak alter langsir yang panjang tu.Then kena beli apa mendalaah putih tu,.Aku dah lupa..istilah jahitan ni.   Ky dah beli sepasang baju kebaya kuning yg sangat lembut. And sangat kontra dengan aku. Sebab?Sebab aku tak lemah lembut gemalai. Hahaha. And aku akan hadiahkan dia baju Melayu sama kolor ngan kebaya tu.Tapi baju2 tu semua dapat dipakai masa lepas cuti ajalah.  Kuih?Itu hari Ky dah beli 2 bekas kuih tapi....kuih tu dan tinggal  setengah dari penuh setiap bekas tu..sambil dia berinternet sambil lah dia mengunyah kuih2 tu.   Hari ni aku dah siapkan resume tu and dh hantar pun. Doakan aku semoga berjaya....

Yes, raya dah hampir tiba. Pesiapan raya tak lengkap lagi. Insya Allah mental dah siap,..tapi kadang2 pun out of mind bila fikir tak dapat balik kampung awal2.. Rumah mum in law mungkin boleh balik hari tapi Ky pun mungkin...mungkin kerja. I don't give a damn about that. Dah kerja.. Talking about kerja.. me also in double triple deep shit. I have to work in the counter since two days agi and in the end yesterday , took a medical leave for 1 day because of my gum pain. Gusi aku dah bengkak gila . Dah masuk 4 hari baru lah aku berani ajak Ky pi jumpa dentist. Kemuncak sakit tu kelmarin bila aku dah tak tahan sakit and Ky terus beli kan Panadal and Milidon which I took both type and in the end, tak sedar lagi. I was crying like a baby...Sakit betul.And I remember Ky's face was seriously worried looking at me. He fed me with that medicine and I only awake at 8.32 am and wondering 'I don't get up for sahur lah' Poor me. This is my first time having this kind of pain.  ...

Teruja dengan kehadiran pasangan pelakun ni.

 Minyak naik lagi? Aku tak tau dan hanya terbaca pada status rakan2 dalam fb. Itu hadiah dari kerajaan untuk kita untuk menikmati kehidupan mewah dengan lebih banyak belanja. Adakah dengan kenaikan itu akan menaikkan taraf hidup kita? Fikirkan ajalah. Sejak bergelar isteri, Alhamdulillah! Aku agak tenang dalam menghadapi keadaan dan agak perlahan dengan ertikata lain..cuba belajar menjadi orang yang lemah lembut sedangkan aku tidak begitu. Cuba menyesuaikan keadaan sebab aku terfikir apa2 keadaan aku akan dipertanggungjawabkan oleh Ky. Ehh..susahnya aku nak menyusun ayat itu.Aku nak menulis sebab dah lama tak menulis. Aku rindu nak menulis tapi macam agak terbatas, lagipun aku dah jadi ketagih di fb. Begitu juga Ky, tapi kami gembira walaupun terpaksa bertukar giliran menggunakan pc yang agak sudah lama(dari 2002). Asyik diupgradekan aja oleh Ky..dan pelbagai setting kami gunakan supaya tidak hang la...apa2 benda lagi lah. Geram jugak jika,sedang asyik dalam game2 kami,tiba2 ja...

I am now a wife to Ky since 20.08.09. such a lovely idea to have the wedding on that day. I don't care whether it's a working day or not. For me, it's mine. Even my parents don't give a damn about the date I choose. Well, they did want to see me married and happy with my husband. This is for them, my parents who always urge to get married soon. And now, I feel a very much difference with Ky more close to me. Please visit my facebook to see the photo album. Thanks a lot.

Aku suka tarikh hari ini dan juga esok. Esok aku akan telefon bekas tunang aku untuk ucapkan selamat bertunang. Hahah..Actually, me fiancee is one of my best friend only. Why did I wrote 'my best friend only'? Because Ky didn't know him. Ky knew almost all my exes...betul ke ni? Tapi dia tak pernah cemburu sebab dia tau perasaan aku. Hari ni aku boring dan aku mulalah menyelak semula entry blog lama di diaryland. Bila aku baca, aku dapati dulu aku mudah putus asa dalam sesuatu perhubungan. Sensitif. sebenarnya itulah aku..Manusia yang sama. Cuma keadaan persekitaran telah mengubah serba sedikit hidup aku.Kerana aku tak mau berusaha lebih kuat menjaga perasaan dan hubungan yang tawar dulu tu. Itu dulu. Tapi sekarang...aku terlalu berusaha begitu kuat sekali, aku tak mau jadi tawar dan terus tiada rasa seperti yang pernah aku alami. Hmm..aku dah jadi orang positif gitu. Kejadian sedih semasa aku balik kampung tu tak mungkin akan berlaku lagi. Aku pun tak tau kenapa jadi m...

Hari yang kunanti,mungkinkah akan tiba. Aku masih sabar dalam menghadapi cabaran hidup kali ini. Ehhh..aku baru sekali hidup .bukan sebelum ni aku dah mati ke??? Terlalu banyak untuk diluah dan aku tak bersedia meluahkannya lagi. Kenapa ntah..

Lama tak berblog di sini. Aku tak nak mencurah idea sebab terlalu banyak untuk diluahkan. Aku dah tak larat lagi. Menunggu hari itu. Kena tangguh2 lagi. Halangan menimpa tiba-tiba. Keluarga dia jaga aku dengan sebaiknya di sini .,terutama keluarga abg Kam.Isteri dia Kak T begitu perihatin.Yg An,Incik, X wife dia dulu pun sama. Begitu perihatin ,tanya aku makan ke tak... Esok aku balik sana. Dipanggil mengadap bonda.

Time running so fast. We were astonished by the scene of the oldies couple which just got married. And they were on TV that shown last night. He was so shining while watching them. Funny of him sometimes. Send those kids after my nite auditing finished at 10.28 pm. History! We were celebrating our 2nd anniversary with sister and brother in laws at the hotel.Having our steamboat dinner! With kids around, I feel more like a mum even they are not my own sons. As long it him, i considered that as mine. That's what he told me. Something that I couldn't take away from him. His precious asset!

Masih sunyi lagi..tak tau bila berakhir,..tapi aku tak putus harap.akan terus usaha untuk perkara yang betul.

Tak tau apa lagi nak ditulis di sini. aku selalu befb aja.

Lama tak memblog di sini. Malam tadi buat farewell untuk trainee yang nak balik ke Medan setelah 6 bulan bekerja sambil buat latihan.

Aku bz dlm bulan ni dan awal bulan Feb. Betul cabar diri. Bila keadaan dh jd lurus n x bengkok,aku pulak masalah. Masa yg sesuai. Ky ok aja! Itulah aku jd takut.

HIDUP BARU! Bukan aku aja, KY PUN! Tiada apa yg dapat dikatakan selain syukur ke hadratNYA. Alhamdulillah! Dalam masa trdekat ni, adalah berita terbaik dalam hidup aku. Buat masa ini,aku x dpt luahkan. Ianya trlalu peribadi utk diisukan. Biarlah dulu.