After 4 months, still feel not happy with thr environment but I guess i am not doing my best to do my job. Perhaps. The satisfaction is not there even quite happy with a lot of people. But people might not be true to you. They can turn around just like a second. Without thinking on the consequences, i following the flow and yet it trapped me. With the situation, i rather confessed without giving guideline and my initiatives had gone wrong all these while. Poor me, i don't really know what is in their heart. Their hatred. But do i need to care for it as i am working for the company and yet I couldn't pleasure everyone in the team. And sometimes i do look like an actress playing some acts.. Which i knew from the start that i can't. I have been saying a lot to my heart, that if i couldn't fullfill my own pleasure why should i stay. Life must move on. Here we go, i was on mc yesterday. To much neck pain and the best part my bp also gone to bo...